yesterday's memories (College days)

while visiting my pictures stored in our pc, i can't believe i still have the pictures with my past crush.. hehehh  eeww.. story can now be told since this guy i once admired was married already.. hehe

We became friends during our math and chemistry laboratory class. He is friendly that'swhy he is easy to be with. We became group mates and slowly observed  him. hehe..

I easily attracted to people with black beauty and chinito eyes. I liked him the way he dressed. He is neat especially when he wore white polo shirt. He doesn't know of course! until we have finished the semester class. He maybe knew that i liked him because one of my friend has a bulgar talks that every friends of mine knows and then everyone knows... what an eeww me. hehe.. but feeling already passed away... From then on, after we graduated from college, i no contact from him and thanks to facebook i meet him again but happily sadly he was married already.. hehe

Anyways, emotion cycles. Just expressing my emotions. HappY bloGgings!

my long time crush

happy to see him online today..  so long time i haven't seen him in  person.. He's doing okay. He is busy with his law studies. he ask me how my exam.Shy to say i failed but happy to hear words of encouragement from him to pursue getting it. Do not give up he said...hehehe.. so KILIG to hear this from him. but its up to kilig moment only. This man i admired before and even to now. Started when I was in 5th year college. My brother and i were new to church and i saw him playing the base guitar. He is in white polo and i easily get attracted to wearing polo men. hehe.. so shallow like.. anyways, as we getting close with church mate, he became closed to  us also and to my brother. My brother used to visit the apartment where he is staying for bible study and when brother is homed, i used to asked how this man going. My brother observed, that i always asked him and he is not favor with him. He advised me to look for others.. hehe.. I don't know what my brother dislikes from this man but i like him that simple.

 Every time he is near, my heart pumps and i avoid in order not to get obvious what i felt for him. so eww of my feeling for him before. so funny thought now to recall. Just don't know how he will react if he will know that am an avid admirer of him. wheew!

In my friends wedding, i was picked up as maid of honor in replacement of his friend because she is not coming. And to my surprise, the partner was him. eew.. again my heart was awakened. Long time already i have not seen him and for that friend's meaningful occasion we became partner...wheeew! So mixed emotions i felt that time. and in picture post time i was so conscious because many are knowing it already aside from him.. But i think he knows already but he not obvious knowing it.. hehe.. so shy to know that I got a crush on him. Time so slow moving to my count that time because i can't believe we became partner that time.

He is soon to be lawyer and can't get him reach. He is getting farther as i like him getting near.. ewww.. hehe..anyways,  i always like hearing him speaking. Every words has a deep meaning and i like that. I wish him lawyer someday. Hoping he can pass the BAR Exam.

For now, I heard that he likes someone, and so i have to accept it..How blessed is his wife to have him. My prayer for him is a blessed life to wherever and whoever he is directed to.

Have a nice day to all.

Up to admirations only!

I met this person last 2005 and we became closed friends till 2007. He left and he is now out of reached.I would say he is close to everyone in fairness. First notice him, he alone joining us while having party while his colleagues not joining that was in chali i think. secondly at December party. Our friends took pictures with him and me too to join the crowds fan most. Felt shy with my too heavy make up face but that was it. It shows on the pictures my consciousness to have him picture with and he don't mind.  While in the bus,he calls me Vendy and am Wendy never mind.

days past and am getting to know him slowly. His a good guy. Good looking guy that at first glance you will unnoticed but later on discover his beauty. He is close to everyone and by the time he is close to me i get irritated. I no wonder why someone will get close him because he persist getting you as friend.He cares and I like caring ones but sadly he is married already.

What i like from this man is he is smart. You can learn from him because he teach. When you are not listening, he knows!. He cares and give advised to your goodness. He sometimes giving treat to Jollibee and Mcdonalds of which I like most. hehe.. He owns the talk and I enjoyed listening especially about his family..

And we became close friend to the point others asked if he is my BF. hehe.. tooo close no good impact to others mind especially when you are close to the someones husband! It became my struggle how to out from our friendship that time.

This man deserves respects and he loves his wife."i love my wife" word comes from him made me salute his faithfulness to his wife. That's why hated when someone doubted he is my BF.

Many times, i doubted because i was indeed closed to him and am getting jealous by other friends.Sometimes to avoid talks of the office i avoid him as much as I could..  I sometimes distance him for others to get chance to be with him of which he also distant from them. Many of his invitations i refused though i like joining dinner out. He always grr because of my thinking. I always mind of other people say.

The time has come and he was leaving for good. I was shocked with what my heart felt.That time felt like, having someone closed dear left me for long time. I cried to the most missing him and i can no longer see him. A bit shame for me to be seen by him crying but what to do? that was it and i could not control tears from flowing..

hhmmm.. Anyways, I somehow admired that person! Hoping him blessed life with his family.