crush 1

When i was high school, we have this what we call "recollections".. the invites were all first year and second year high schoolers. I was one of the invites and it made me feel so excited with the hope that my crush will join also. hmm..
But his appearance not present.. and that makes me miss him...

after some activities, reading bible, cooking, and playing, i saw this very talented man in soccer and basketball playing. He's not that tall but still he was joining the playing team.. also in table tennis he excel so my heart slowly creeping to like him... as to what i said, He's not that tall, handsome and most all he is DARK.. ewww my friends used to call me..because he's not good looking... he was second year that time and i was first year... 1 year gap...

After so much fun looking at him playing games, i started to like playing table tennis which caused me to play hard and being qualified in the regional games.. My purpose of enrolling it is that i just wanted to see him playing.. that's all..

Soccer ball is what he like most.. and i stick to table tennis which i hated playing without seeing him.. eww.. what a grown up girl feeling.. every details of his activities i am a fan and he's not knowing it until i gave a birthday card.. eewwww so shy to what i did.. I can't imagine i did that just to let him know.. but anyways.. that all my past yucky feeling to him..

so much struggle after he knew it.. He felt shy and me too much shame of what i did.. it's not good to hear that am making the first move.. but i did it.. anyways.. clumsy past of me..

There was a longing that maybe this guy would court me.. again yucks,, what a feeling pretty girl i was.. Until he was 4rth year and i was on my 3rd year at iligan city. I transferred due to family financial condition, my card grade problem and afraid much that i will be married at my very young age. Other aunties told me to marry or neighbor because he can afford to make me live abundantly.. wheew! thankful one aunties saved me.. she let me studies in iligan and that made me miss my first crush..

While in iligan, my friends news me that he was looking for me but my feelings slowly fading... they said that he likes me, but he can't tell it on me so i don't believe.. So years past and we no communication at all..I just heard that he married and that made us a very big gap.. What left is my yucky feelings remembering the things i did for him to make notice of me.. Yucks ,.. yucks on me..